Boy, I tell you this 4:44 album has allowed us to see a side of JayZ we have never seen. he has publicly opened up about his marriage and his incapability to love.
“ What I thought when I met my dad was ‘I’m free to love now.” But how are you going to do it? You want to do it. I get it. But how are you going to do it? You’ve never done this before. No one informed you how to do this. You don’t even have the tools to do it. But you’re going to do it because you’re ready. That’s why I say ‘you mature faster than me, I wasn’t ready. This is my real life.
I just ran into this place, and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn’t totally built on the 100 percent truth. And then it starts cracking. Then things start happening that the public can see.
Then we had to get to a point of ‘Okay, tear this down and let’s start from the beginning’…It’s hard. Remember I’m from Marcy Projects, I’ve been shot at, all kinds of ish but nothing is harder than this. By far It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And most people. Most humans, US, we’re not willing to put ourselves through that. Most people give up.”
Jay Z then speaks on why they decided to put down the wall of fake happy marriage and finally get real; so they could finally be happy:
“We’ve been in that space where we got to a place where we were like in order for this to work it can’t be fake, not one ounce. I’m not saying it wasn’t uncomfortable, because obviously, it was, but because we’ve been doing it so long it was less uncomfortable.”